Day One

Today is my 46th birthday. Most people focus on landmark birthdays as a time to reflect and take a look at their lives. I think 46 is a perfectly unremarkable birthday to think about where my life has brought me to, and where I am going.

I've been thinking for a long time about whether or not I wanted to continue with this blog. The main question I ask myself is, "Is it necessary, or even a good idea, to publicize my journey?" What I usually come back to is that this blog is mostly only read by my friends, so it's more of a way to keep up with you than to be openly public about anything. But if others happen to read it, that's okay too. Another reason it's hard to open up is that sometimes I feel ashamed of who I am. Don't get me wrong. I think I have some pretty good qualities. But I am pretty hard on myself as well, so publicly acknowledging my shortcomings is a challenge. But enough about that. I'm gonna do it anyway.

Even though I haven't been writing, my life has been changing a lot. My desire to grow personally gets stronger and stronger all the time. I have been doing a lot of reading and studying ways to improve myself and become my best self. My habits and the way I spend my time have changed. I'll talk more about that over the course of time.

So, I'm writing because I have decided to have the best year of my life this year, in my 47th year. And yes, I truly believe this is a decision that I, or anyone, can make. That's saying something, considering the many amazing things that have happened in my life so far. This year has had a great start already, as I became a grandma. What an amazing experience! I thought becoming a mom was amazing, but when my own child brought a child into this world, I gained a new perspective on eternity.

Here are some of the things that will happen in my life this year, because I choose them for myself. I will lose 100 pounds, maybe a little more. I will have surgery to get my hernia fixed, so I can be in one piece again. I will continue to help my children become their best selves. I will become a Regional Vice President of my own company with Arbonne. I will continue to strive to do as much for other people as I can, because this brings me the greatest joy in my life. And I will learn to love myself better, so I can love others better. To me, relationships are the very most important thing in life, and they should be cherished above all else.

I called this post Day One because I believe that every day is Day One. Every day is a chance for me to decide to make my life what I want it to be. So tomorrow is also Day One, and every day after that.

I will post my health achievements for you all to see, because I appreciate your support. Look for the chart on the right bar of the blog. And I will keep you updated on the other, less quantitative things as well. Thanks for your friendship, and for being a part of my life. Have a beautiful day!