The past few days have been tough for me. I kind of got into a funk, and wasn't able to shake it as easily as I usually do. Thankfully, with some pondering and prayer, I am back in the game. I'm not just talking about weight loss here. I'm talking about EVERYTHING. I am as guilty as anyone of putting pressure on myself to be more than I am. I am glad that I have a desire to improve myself, but I struggle with being content today. Still working on this one. That being said, here's what I believe to be true: the me I am today is good enough, but I can strive to be more.
My weight loss/healthy eating hasn't been going very well, I'm sorry to say. Thankfully, my Get F.I.T. Group starts anew every couple of weeks. So, today is Day 1 again! Thanks for indulging me and my restarts!
This morning I weighed 204. Yes, I've gained. I probably mentioned this before, but I tend to eat nervously when I have a deadline. It's almost counterintuitive for me to be public about my goals, because the pressure to succeed under the microscope makes me want to eat. Nevertheless, I am striving to make personal changes, one of which is to stop my nervous eating.
I also set a high bar for my business this summer, putting some pressure on myself. I just reached a new management level, and I'm shooting for the next management level by the end of the summer. Not only that, but I asked my VP to schedule me to do a team training in September. I promised her I would have something worthwhile to share regarding my business in the summer. I love my job, and I welcome the opportunity for growth. But I know I'm a little crazy as well.
Here are some things that I rediscovered as I was pondering, working to shake my blues. First, I've made big life changes before. I've made decisions to change specific habits, and I've been successful. What is required to succeed, I think, is a big enough reason to do it. In Arbonne, we call it your "why." So, my success will come (and it WILL come) when my "why" is clear enough in my mind, and big enough to squash any desires I have to hold onto old habits. This idea works for all areas of life. I chose to become a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints because I felt it was the right thing for me to do. My "why" was bigger than my reasons not to. I made a lot of life changes at that time. I've never looked back on many bad habits I had. I have no regrets about that. If I choose to commit today to give up unhealthy food, my "why" has to be bigger than my fears, my habits, my desires for unhealthy food. This is a big deal, because I've developed a physical and emotional dependency on unhealthy foods. It's a lifetime of bad habits that I'm trying to walk away from. But that doesn't mean I can't do it. If it's a good thing to do, I believe it can be done, as long as I don't give up. I also believe in relying on the strength of God to succeed. The principle is true for my work as well. If my reason for succeeding in growing my own business is big enough, it can squash any fears I may have about reaching out to others to share Arbonne.
Finally, I want to talk about small victories. This was my little epiphany this morning. Every small choice we make in the right direction is a victory, and should be celebrated. One tiny raindrop isn't much water by itself, but put several together, and it can make a flower grow, or even become a stream, a raging river, or a mighty ocean. No matter how huge and powerful a body of water, it is made up of drops of water.
Every step I take in my journey is important. I may stumble periodically as my foot hits a rock or slippery patch, but if I watch closely and place my steps carefully, each one is an essential part of my journey, helping me get where I need to be.
I love you all!Have a great day!