I am trending downward this week, which is good. I am determined that December will be a good month for me in terms of weight loss, as well as other areas of self-improvement.
My house is getting more organized. I tackled the "office" area last weekend, and it's much more functional now. I catalogued my Arbonne inventory and organized it on a shelf in the storage room. I have lots of paperwork to sift through, which takes time, but not so much space.
We have started decorating for Christmas, which I love to do. It looks like we should be able to get our tree up this weekend. Then it will really feel festive! I will post a video when the house is clean/decorated, so there is an "after" video to go with the "before" video I posted earlier!
One thing I have noticed about myself is that when I have weight loss deadlines (so to speak), I get anxious. This is a problem, since my usual method of coping with anxiety is to eat. One of the deadlines that causes me the most anxiety is my appointment with my surgeon. I have actually postponed my visit with him twice since the summer, hoping that I can lose more weight before I meet with him, and not feel so ashamed of myself. The fact of the matter is, I want to get this hernia surgery taken care of, and he has said he wants me to lose a certain amount of weight before he will do it. So, since I'm feeling okay, I just push back the appointment, hoping that I will lose a sufficient amount of weight before we meet again. Well, I have another appointment on December 13. I have decided that I will go to this one, no matter what. It's good for me to let him evaluate my health as well. My goal is to get the surgery done before I go to Rome in March. But I will need to have it done several weeks in advance of that trip in order to heal up. That puts me around the middle of January. With about 25 pounds to lose before I am "skinny" enough, that's going to be hard, especially at the rate I've been going. But what I need to do to manage my anxiety is to shift my thinking a little bit.
The anxiety really comes from feeling ashamed of not accomplishing more. But I can take a step back and say, "Maybe I could have lost the weight by now, but I haven't. Regardless, I'm moving in the right direction. I can't go back in time, but I can make decisions today that will help me to get where I want to be, eventually."
I'm really not sure how fast I can lose weight. I'm not sure I can lose it fast enough to get the surgery done before the trip. But I need not feel ashamed of myself. It doesn't help anything. What helps is for me to make the choices today that point me in the right direction and keep me making progress. If I'm heading the right direction, and I'm moving, I will eventually get where I want to be.
Suzy, regardless of deadlines, it's always best to lose weight slowly. It will then be closer to your permanent habits, plus it will give your skin the chance to change with you. I'm working hard in this area too and I've found an app "habit streak" that helps me reward my good habits daily.
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